Sometimes we find ourselves at the crossroads of trust because what we are believing God for has not come as quickly as we desired. But the word of the Lord assures us that they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings as eagles. They shall run and not be weary—and they shall walk and not faint.(Isaiah 40:31 KJV) So, in your waiting perhaps this prayer will help.
Father: I desire to be a person who stands firm and trusts you wholeheartedly. I want to be unshakeable and resilient. But that can only happen by me trusting you with all my heart and not leaning to my own understanding. Please develop that deeper trust in me. God I desperately need it and want to trust you more. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” (Romans 15:13 NASB) Blessings and Peace.
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